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I HATE SPAM! Read Our Privacy PolicyPosted 6 months ago sweetcalendula
offlineMemberI have been reading Scott's blog for the past 2 weeks, and I decided to send him the recommended NC diary, unchanged, via email, that was about one month after the break up ( 3 weeks of text messaging terrorism, 1 week of total disconnection until I found this site, and finally I did send it without hesitation )
" Hi,
I agree with you about the decision to break up, I really believe it was the best thing for both of us. I have some big decisions to make and I need some time to think them over. I would really appreciate it if you didn’t contact me during this time. I will be in touch when I am ready. "
Note : I had practising NC for 12 days so far. and Yep, I got his email 3 hours after I sent the message.
He sent me pictures of his car getting involved in an accident at 4 am.
He even sent me whatsapp messages like:
" Dear friend, have a peak at your email and your whatsapp message, thank you "Later 1 am the next day :
" Hi, I just wanted to ask how are you doing, but you never replied. It's okay, sorry for disturbing, take care there "" I know you're doing fine, because I sent you the email and whatsapp message but you never replied "
He even called me the next day, and left me with a text message again,
" I called because I needed help from you. Not money if that worries you, I need help in terms of transportation to work if you received my email and whatsapp message "" Hello... anyone there? "
He began calling both my cell phones again and again.
Left me messages like " So this is it? the end of us? we are not even friends? say something will you?"
" Testing... testing... testing... "
Until it ended like this,
" you moved on? i'm not here to open old wounds, but to beg for help and mercy. i know the truth hurts for you, i wouldnt lie i have feelings too, i wouldnt lie i do loved you when we were together. old memories kept haunting...it was a hurtful, very very hard to make the decision... but i had to take it. because i wouldn't wanna hurt you and foremostly lying to you. there was this one time i thought of keeping you... but it would be really unfair to you... i'm here to make a truce.. to be a friend to you... it's okay if you're not up to it. forgive me, a thousand apologies. you take good care there. "again, i ignored. and he ended " it's okay. i'll disappear into thin air"
so roughly throughout my Day1 till Day4 of NC he had been trying to text, and call me. I left him without a word.
It's been Day 12 of NC and yet I am staying strong, I see my transformation up till today, although sometimes I had him in my mind, sometimes I even thought of breaking the NC but hey, I've been this far... and I'm here to get control over my life again and be a better me. I don't know if he will ever contact me again, but if he had respected my request, he would haven't contacted me right?
Roughly I am equipped with my studies, went out with my girls for movies, and window shopping. and yes, i am in greater shape now. Yes, I even started my own personal diary to begin my new journey!
This is my first break up so far, and I'm 24
well, it was rough at the beginning... as in my break up story i did all the donts in the following 3 weeks after the break up. and yes, I let it go, I finally got the courage to bury them, and to officiate its own grave that my last relationship is now dead.
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jasmine
offlineInactiveHi sweetcalendula,
Welcome to the forum
You did a great job..Don't respond to him by any means.He is just trying to take the control back from you so be aware.Stop worrying if he contacts you in future because you are here to get your life back not him
So work on yourself and you will come to know later how to deal with him
Stay strong & positive
Thanks,
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Posted 5 months ago sweetcalendula
offlineMemberIt's been Day 14 of NC and I am feeling better these few days. I kinda still did the checking on my phones just to see if he appeared to text or call outta nowhere like he did before especially when I am alone. My brother was telling me he has been changing his Whatsapp status almost every other day. I used to keep him in my contacts after the break up and he never changed his status ever since we are done. Right after I totally gave him the silent treatment ( NC ) he does change it almost all the time. From "no status" to anything that he has been up to lately. I know him so well and he always does that to get my attention. Well, ignoring and blocking him off from everything is indeed a good idea, and I am so glad I did.
I am pretty packed with myself lately, and yea I have planned for what I wanted to do for this coming 2 months. I have 2 months until my finals and apart from that, that is exactly going to be how long I will be in the same city as my ex boyfriend. 2 months to go. My upmost priority, is still, my finals.
Pretty updated my daily journals and after listing the pros and cons lately, and the issues.... there are so many things to improve. Truth to be told, I have never been on total NC on any of my previous encounters, I have always give in. SW's blog has been helping me a LOT. I have come this far, thankfully and yes there are many things that I actually learn... especially self-discovery. There are so many parts of me that I haven't discovered all this while, and I realised I have been depending on my surroundings to nurture me with love. After reading about the forum on LOA, it really shook me off. Nothing is much greater than self-love. We will have to love ourselves first before anyone else can love you.
Seriously, I am in control of what I am feeling right now. Although he comes to my mind once in a while, but in the end... I have the power in me.
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sweetcalendula said:
My brother was telling me he has been changing his Whatsapp status almost every other day.You will do MUCH better without the updates from your brother.
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offlineMemberOkay so I'm encroaching Day 15. Wow. Tomorrow will be a festive season, as big as Christmas in my country. I am feeling taken aback, bcos I have always thought I would celebrate it with him this year. I hardly sleep last night. I've read some posts on whether to break NC during the festive period. I know the answer will always be no. I just don't know why am I wondering having him around if he will wish me or not.
I am currently in my hometown, thus being with my family and friends occupied me. My plans for this entire week would be hanging out with them. Yep, all the girl moments. Planned to wear my 5 inches heels for the first time in my life, lol. I know that sounded so weird. I just need to really get my confidence back. All this while, my self-esteem and confidence level have been too low.
So right now... he doesn't text / call / email me anymore after I've ignored him that day. No news as yet. We only have little mutual friends, he doesn't have facebook, and he deleted me off twitter when we had arguments before... that benefits me so I wouldn't have any idea of what's happening around with him.
Okay I gotta be stronggg.
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sweetcalendula
offlineMemberHey Jam, Yes I do, thanks. I am one of the tallest among my friends, and I used to be that timid girl who listened to all the critics seriously. They always said that I am too tall to wear heels, but hey I don't care now. I have the height, so what? I feel really good with my stilettos on.
Yea, currently no news up till today, there is no sign of him wishing me though.
Hey AA, yep I hope so too. I seriously can't wait for the day that I won't be bothered anymore. I gotta be honest today was an emotional day to me... because there is no sign of him wishing me. But yea. what to do. life still goes on. I know this is the best thing for both us. i know its not wrong to ignore him that day bcos we both need this space.
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sweetcalendula
offlineMemberOkay i lost count. I think it's Day 17 for now. Went out for visiting today, and yea I can't deny that I am expecting him to wish me but I guess he has forgotten me from his life when he is already with someone else.
His mother texted me, wished me Eid today though. She even invited me to come over to her place, which i think is definitely NOT a good idea. His mom has always favoured me than the other girl, but hey feelings can't be forced. I told his mom that he loves her at the moment, and i shall just let them be and pray the best for them. I know at this point of time I should really cut off the connection between me and his mom.
A part of me wanted to break NC today so that I can wish me, a part of me thinks that i am ready to talk to him, but a part of me is doubting it. you know you are not yet ready when you are hesitating over things. I won't allow myself to be sad the whole day... I will have fun with my girlfriends today visiting from houses to houses. I am going to wear something attractive today, because I want to feel good abut myself.
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Posted 5 months ago AA
offlineMemberEid Mubaarak
His mother texted me, wished me Eid today though. She even invited me to come over to her place, which i think is definitely NOT a good idea.
Feel grateful that you are getting eid wishes from people and enjoy the festival, as far as the idea of "visiting his mom's place", you are thinking right at your part, go out with your other friends and enjoy.
I told his mom that he loves her at the moment, and i shall just let them be and pray the best for them. I know at this point of time I should really cut off the connection between me and his mom.
Indeed, there was no need to mention that whom your ex loves or what's your opinion about the whole stuff, it could have been enough if you would have just thanked her for her sweet wishes and wished her the same.. Again I agree with you, cutting off the connection between you and his mom will be the best thing to do, or just be nice to her if she initiates and avoid any kind of discussion going towards you and your ex..A part of me wanted to break NC today so that I can wish me, a part of me thinks that i am ready to talk to him, but a part of me is doubting it.
You know.. it may sound hypothetical... But.. You can always wish him there in your heart.. The whole idea of wishing someone is to share the happiness of the festival, right? You can wish him happiness in your mind and it will reach to him.. Just like your loved ones pray for your well-being and their prayers shower blessings on you..It's good that you are in your own control as of now, and thinking the right ways.. Gud luck
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sweetcalendula
offlineMemberHELPPPP Okay guys I broke NC. I thought I was ready enough to reconnect but i was wrong. Eid was an emotional event and I couldn't resist myself,.
I sent him an Eid message and he actually replied and unblock me from whatsapp. I thought I was seriously okay when I wasn't. He said " It's all said and done, let it pass us by sooner or later" and I replied, " hey don't worry about it, it's okay. How's your raya?" He said " ok... you take care okay?", later said "i'm working" I tried to be cool by talking about the work and he ignored me completely. i feel seriously regretting it for the fact that i broke NC... I always thought I was okay when I am NOTTT. SW is going to kick me on my ass now. sigh
So i resend the NC message via his email and I added " If friendship is what you wanted, we should go own our on separate ways ". I said that becos if really friendship that he values in me no matter how busy he is... he could just say " TTYL " nor something. He's always online in whatsapp for god's sake. i was literally disappointed i thought he would change and appreciate me. but i was so WRONG.
He then immediately replied " I was working, Just take it like this, let's not have anything at all and let's go own our separate ways. Sorry for everything. So long. Goodbye "
I initially thought that I could cope with it but i was wrong. i really regret it and now i think i wouldn't wanna hope any longer. i was doing my evolution and i progressed until he emailed messaged me constantly after the first NC letter and NOW he's controlling me i thought he would change as he wanted us to be friends and guys i was so wrong.
I think I am giving up in him and just let things be and be own my own evolving.
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sweetcalendula said:
He then immediately replied " I was working, Just take it like this, let's not have anything at all and let's go own our separate ways. Sorry for everything. So long. Goodbye "You shouldn't have changed the NC message by adding that shit about being friends.
Since he replied to your last NC message, resend the NC message again without any changes this time.
This will drive your point home.
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Posted 5 months ago sweetcalendula said:
I dunno scott i was insane. should i apologize for saying such thing before i resend nc?No, don't apologize, just send the recommended NC message without any changes.
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sweetcalendula
offlineMemberSo officially today I resend the NC WITHOUT any changes. I felt seriously stupid for breaking NC. and I have no one else to blame but myself. Scott is always right, do not break NC even if you're dying inside. I don't know what striked in me that i wrote about the stupid getting friends either in the previous NC letter. I really REGRET it.
I don't know what I am feeling right now... there is a part of me feeling guilty for doing such for myself when a part of me feels drowned. A part of me is giving up and i think there is no more chance of me making things right again.
I was about to boost myself until he came about with his messages trying to test my resolve. Guys, I need words of encouragement here.
Right now I feel like I am giving up in the attempts of hoping him to come back. I just want my own life back now. I want my old back now. I seriously have jot down all the things that I can do to improve myself.
Issue 1 :
I was very an overcontrolling, overreacting, selfish person before right after I flung my finals in May. I had never failed in my life and that it took me time to grieve and moan and being that insecure, I pushed him all the way, making him felt that I never understand him.Issue 2 :
His insecurity about his financial constraint - him as a telemarketer and me as a future doctor soon.After going through all this, and talked to one of my friend's mom who has been reading self-help books, we had a philosophical conversation about men. One thing about men is that they feel easily intimidated by women's success. Men would wanna dominate most of the time and they would feel insecure over women's better achievements. Issue 2 has been dragging me alot for these past few weeks that I thought it would be better off not continuing or getting back together with him. I initially thought that it would be better of as friends... but looking at how he was and yes he was just using the friendship issue to get me on his track... there is no point of being friends with benefits. That was why I added the friendship thing inside and I totally regret it. I messed up with NC :(((
I just want to move on and pick myself up again.
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Sheri.Ruffalo
offlineMemberhallo, you are back on track and thats great. from my experience - i am one week no contact and what helps me is to think about the past relationship as little as possible - too much emotions attached to it, so i am not really able to think that clear, and i will have time for that later. i just focus really hard on everyday life and how to make each day as good as possible for me. i have many quotes written down in my diary that i just like to read from time to time and they always help and make me refocus - these are my very favourite: 1. If you feel bad, you are focusing your mind upon what you do not want, 2. no matter how messed up/hopeless the situation may seem striving for excellence will turn things around. you are back on track so that means you have already moved on, every second since you made that decision to resend NC you are moving on and on and on
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Posted 5 months ago AA
offlineMemberHi sweetcalendula,
Forget what all you did with your first NC. It happens, but we need to start over again with full patience and self-love, ok?
Let me share this with you..
You know, before coming to this forum, I used to send him messages as if my last messages, but I used to break my own decisions by calling or texting him, every 14th day or at most 30th day.. I did it many times, so many times that whenever I used to send him some text like "I won't contact you from now on", he used to reply by sending me stupid forwarded jokes, which showed how much he respected my stand-still.
It is this patience and calmness of people in this forum that keeps on inspiring me more and more, and I haven't broke up my NC even once after coming to this forum. You are not alone. All of us are there in the same shoes (or similar). Just help yourself and focus more on yourself. It will become more easy for you.
We all are here to set examples for each other. And SW being there to guide us.
Instead of WAITING to reconnect or trying to know "when" you should reconnect, I personally feel that we should leave this "reconnect" thing on time. Time will tell you "when" to reconnect or rather "is there any need to reconnect at all?"
Because when worries go out of your life you welcome happiness and abundance. So let them go......
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AA said:
Because when worries go out of your life you welcome happiness and abundance. So let them go......Exactly AA!
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sweetcalendula
offlineMemberThanks guys for the support. Yes at this moment of time i am like really in the lowermost bottom that I felt my first NC was a mess. Can u imagine it was all hardwork I have been pouring out all along and I messed it in a day?
I agree with you AA, bcos I used to do the same thing before I got into this forum. The longest I was out of touch was during my first period of NC. I was that strong to ignore him and now I am at the first step again.
SW, you seriously get my head straight again. Thanks!
Sheri, you are right. I know, I have to focus and distract myself from all the negativity.
Jasmine, thank you. Omg, I should've listened to you. ): my instinct and emotions went berserk.
It's been Day 3 of NC. Anyways, right after I resend NC, he actually didn't understand what I was saying. I kinda sent him few emails about the eid before and I resent NC as my last email to him. He was like " You sent me few emails and I hardly understand what you're trying to say. Please be more direct. Thank you "
And later he sent me a text message like " Kindly reply my texts via whatsapp. Your urgent response is appreciated. Thanks " I actually blocked his whatsapp the night when I sent the wrong NC. So that was his last response.
Yesterday was fun, although I was depressed in a way but I made the effort to go out and chill with my friends. It helped, it distracted me from all the nonsense thinking.
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Posted 5 months ago you got everyone here to support you. Gambate!!
we are here to support each other!
God grant me the serenity to accept things that I cannot change....
The first step toward change is acceptance.
Change is not something you do, it's something you allow.
Develop an attitude of gratitude, and give thanks for everything that happens to you.Posted 5 months ago #-
sweetcalendula
offlineMemberThanks AngelBear!
Just wanna update a bit I received a missed call notification from an unknown number. I rarely get those and I don't know whose number is that and I don't bother calling back or checking who is that. No updates from him so far as yet, as I've blocked him from everything at the moment.
Seriously, looking at the positive side of what I did for the past few days, I am beginning to be much stronger. Now I have the courage to really focus on what i want in my life and what can i do to improve myself. yes, i am back on track, although i broke NC.
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jasmine
offlineInactiveHey sweetcalendula,
Don't bother what he replied back to your NC..Ignore it completely and work on yourself
My ex also replied back saying sorry but what is this..I did not understand it..When did I contact you?you are free..you don't need to get in touch for anything ".So its kind of pissed him off..I was never expecting his reply back..
So stay strong and positive
Take Care,
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Posted 5 months ago ah...exes...the day we want them they never bother to call/contact us...only after it was over and when no one chase them, then they started to call..message...wondering, asking...(not my ex though, on the other hand, i do wish he didnt coz it will make me tempted to break the nc rule).
God grant me the serenity to accept things that I cannot change....
The first step toward change is acceptance.
Change is not something you do, it's something you allow.
Develop an attitude of gratitude, and give thanks for everything that happens to you.Posted 5 months ago #-
sweetcalendula
offlineMemberyep. true Angelbear. it's like they can't really make up their mind. my ex is obviously confused. but that's what he wanted, so i am free now and i just need all the time to focus only me and only myself.
Seriously, it's better that they don't contact bcos you will hardly resist it. well the Eid made me breaking my NC. bcos i was so tempted by the fact he msged me before. that's why we are here to stick with our own plans... to get OUR lives back.
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sweetcalendula
offlineMemberIt's Day 4 of my second NC. No news from him as yet.
I felt better as I spent my whole night with my close friends, wearing all the things that made me felt good. It's just that I am back to my college officially today, ( same city as my ex ) i went emotional today. But yea, after contemplating everything I know the worst thing that i did was breaking NC, but hey I am looking forward to get myself back on track and persevere for another 2 months to my finals. Just this two months, to get my degree for my parents, and myself.
I kinda deviate my attention to elsewhere whenever I start thinking about all the flashbacks that come to mind. But yea, I won't let myself drown and dwell into it much because I am going out for a girl's night out soon!
Plans for this week :
a) Spend some family time with my adopted family here. Eid!
b) Some outdoor activities - theme parks with my girls!
c) Packed myself with my studies!SW, thanks again for giving me this confidence booster that it's okay to pick myself up again after that insane action i made! you're the best!
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theme park!! ooooh...that sounds fun!
that's a place where all the good vibes, positive energy is concentrated (who would be sad in theme parks anyway?)
God grant me the serenity to accept things that I cannot change....
The first step toward change is acceptance.
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Posted 5 months ago sweetcalendula
offlineMemberWaking up today with a lil pang in the chest. After spending a good time with my girlfriends last night, i realised that lovelife isn't everything that i needed. i realised that my relationship with my ex was simply bcos i needed someone so bad during that point of time when we were together.
although i still feel sad about what i did and what happened, i have more courage to move on at the moment. i am slowly backing out from keeping in touch with his mother... ( well his mother has always liked me and sometimes she updated me about him and his gf ). sometimes i just totally ignore her. and i think i will after that.
i hope to be stronger!
hey angelbear, thank! yeappp. will try to accomplish that!
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sweetcalendula
offlineMemberHere goes my second NC letter that I emailed to him 5 days ago. Just to see how my evolutionary process goes.
" Hi,
I agree with you about the decision to break up, I really believe it was the best thing for both of us. I really have some big decisions to make and I need some time to think them over. I would really appreciate it if you didn’t contact me during this time. I will be in touch when I am ready. "
Roughly I felt much better today, still coping up with the little changes I need to adapt as I just got back from my hometown. At this moment of time I am no longer expecting any of his replies or attempts to approach me, after his last remark as mentioned above.
I have been reading a lot about self-help articles mainly on relationships, and yes I am fortunate in the sense that this break up is the best thing for both of us to evolve. i dunno if he is evolving too at the moment as he is pretty equipped with his gf. i used to be really insecure but after reading and digesting about LOA, NC has given me the opportunity to focus on myself much more than i ever imagined.
it's day 5 and yes i know i can do it better this time.
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sweetcalendula said:
i dunno if he is evolving too at the moment as he is pretty equipped with his gf.Things are not always as they seem.
Don't let outside factors color your perception of how you think things may turn out, this will only bring the LOA against you, especially if they are negative.
This is why it is best to not think/worry about your ex at all, and focus on your own life, in the present.
Focus on yourself, and your own personal evolution, the only thing that can change your life (for better or worse) is you - with your thoughts and feelings.
Stay Strong and Positive!
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Jetlag
offlineInactiveHi sweetcalendula!
So good to know that you're able to get back on track. Everytime you have the need to contact him, ask advices/supports from this forum first. I also almost called my ex couple of days ago since he sent me several emails telling me how much he loved me etc. I was tempted to reconnect with him and told him that I'd call back soon. I even planed what I'd like to talk about to win him back! I was so sure that I was ready to reconnect! Thankfully, I read this forum before I did so. Scott advised me to not to do that and almost banned me because I said things about getting my ex back
In fact, I wasnt ready at all. I did learn something: when your ex says nice things to you after you sent the NC letters, without mentioning anything about asking you back, be suspicious. He may not mean it and just wanna take his control back ...
Ive also read somewhere in this forum, Scott said that if your ex really misses you, loves you etc, he can be just less selfish, respect your request and wait until you're ready to contact him.
About his mother, I think its better for you to politely ask to cut the contact for awhile. It can help you in process.
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Posted 5 months ago sweetcalendula
offlineMemberThanks Scott for the words of strength! i shall not presume anything any longer. *absorbing all the positivity*
Hey Jetlag, thank you! i was really relieved after sending the 2nd NC letter, thanks to SW! I know, i seriously made a huge mistake by thinking that it was the right thing to do. Like seriously, if i had the intention one more time in the future ( i hope not ) i would definitely ask our fellow forum members. it was truly a lesson to me and i really won't break my NC any longer. NO MORE! despite all the beautiful words he used to me.
It's good that SW advised you on that one, though. Sometimes we are too tempted with our own desires in order to contact him and that we thought that we were ready to reconnect when we are actually not ready at all. That was the exact same thing that happened to me on the day i broke NC. I am really glad that I made it to the point again.
I totally agree with you, it's like they wanted to use all the nice things to grab your attention to make you break NC. i am so thankful that i was that strong to not give in any longer after breaking it for the first time. grrrr.
I just deleted his mother's number so that i won't be longer thinking anything about her and him. Do PM me Jetlag if you need to vent out! hugggs
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u will find strength each day you get thru temptations. u go girl!
God grant me the serenity to accept things that I cannot change....
The first step toward change is acceptance.
Change is not something you do, it's something you allow.
Develop an attitude of gratitude, and give thanks for everything that happens to you.Posted 5 months ago # -
sweetcalendula
offlineMemberHey guys, thank you! i hope all of us will get our success stories soon too. hugs.
Btw, it's a week of NC. omg, time really flies.
Waking up today with a glimpse of him today, well if you read my break up story i am not sure up till today if i was his rebound. he kept on telling me that i wasnt, he eventually wanted to keep me but he said he wouldn't wanna hurt and lie to me as i deserve to have his 'sacrifice'. he got back to the girl before me.... and it seemed that their relationship is progressing fast now. well, like SW said, i shall not worry or think about him any longer bcos i will only attract negativity. but seriously, if the love is mine, it will come back to me one fine day.
to be honest my plan right now is to focus on my upcoming exams in 2 months time. Seriously i gotta gear up and get my degree.
Roughly i planned to have a mini study group with my uni mates, and i would wanna spend this 2 months here with my friends and concentrate on things that make me happy. Seriously, i feel like i'm waking up today to the life i used to have before i met him.
Just to share a bit, i am now talking to the guy ( my senior whom i used to like 2 years ago ). well i backed out before bcos his bestfriend who is completely in love with him dislikes me and i truly hurted him. we were so close to a point that he refused to talk to me for almost a year just bcos i slowly ignored him. and now we began talking middle this year and we even hung out for movies and lunch. so roughly we are taking things slowly.
note to self and forum members ; stay strong stay positive stay focus.
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Try listen to The Power. It really knocks something that we always overlooked in our lives to keep us stronger each day.
God grant me the serenity to accept things that I cannot change....
The first step toward change is acceptance.
Change is not something you do, it's something you allow.
Develop an attitude of gratitude, and give thanks for everything that happens to you.Posted 5 months ago #
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